i dont even know...

so i dont know what to do about this college thing. i dont feel like im getting the best grades, im not even joking... i might be mentally retarded. i think i know what im talking about, i study alot but when i take the tests i just really dont know the answers. its not that i know them after the test either... i just clearly didnt know them in the first place. even open book stuff... should be able to get an A... but dont. all the other people in my classes are getting decent grades so its not that its too hard...
well o well i guess ill just have to study All the time... which dosent look too promising... wow the complete lack of extra motivation is really killing me.

at least it will get better...

it really couldnt get any worse

:)